God, give me a vision. How can I hear that talk tonight about suffering for You and yet not know Your calling ? Must I always be patient? I guess it is not fair to ask such a question, when You shouldn't be questioned, but I am feeling alone. I am feeling struck down and abandoned. God I want to open my heart to You. I don't want my mind to be filled with thoughts of him, I don't want to be filled with desires that are for selfish desiree. God how can we ever enjoy life and be safe in Your arms? God is everything okay? Should I change something, remove something, should I just be still? I don't know what to do? Should I do more? Should I just talk to every person I can manageably talk to about You Lord? I want to be with and in You Lord. I really don't want anything else, but feeling alone and feeling down is not so grand. God can I stand just in Your word? What about Your presence, or a vision? or some kind of guidance? How long does patience last? How long to wait, or are you calling me to act in faith? Maybe I am not to ask why? How can I control my thoughts and my desires, can You take control?

LORD, come.

LORD, hold me.

LORD, never let go.

I am alone.

The heart becomes stone.

I need you this time,

fall on me.

How can I be fine?

pour over me.

Where are the angles?

Where are the promises to cling to?

Where is the hope to cling to?

Where are the people to hold onto?

Why is the soul restless within me?

How can I desire something more than You?

How do I let it go? How do I rid myself of temptation?

Forgive me LORD.

Forgive me Father.

Forgive me Jesus.

Forgive me Holy Spirit.

I can not live without Your guidance Father.

I can not live without Your love Jesus.

I can not not live in the Spirit of truth.

How can I be led again by You?

How can I come back into restoration?

My heart and mind have failed me again and again.

I am not giving You my best, I am letting my sin flee me into oblivious disclosure from You.

I want to be restored.

Take away my mind,

Take away my time,

Carry me away.