a thought

I wish I could simply give up...you know?? sometimes it feels like there is no strength yet, you feel like you need to be joyful all the time but you cant seem to get it all together....maybe i am not meant to have it all together. maybe really all i am called to do is to every day come to an understanding that i dont have it all together. to be reminded that all the glory goes to God, not myself. I wish that I could fight these desires effortlessly, but life really calls for much more, it calls for endurance, understanding, patience, trust, rest in God, etc. I don't want to do any of these things, because I feel weak. But I need to remember that I am strong in Christ.