control freak i am

It's ironic how you can feel like you are two separate people. You become humble and kind, but you also can become angry and mean. This week stress has been calling my not so nice side to come out and play. I don't always understand why God allows us to act the way we do, or allows us to feel that way we do, but He has a purpose. Today I am going to forget about the anxieties and the worries and rest in His faithfulness. My salvation is kept in heaven, never to be taken away from me for it is kept safe. I have a hope to be at peace even when the world around me is crumbling and falling on top of me. The weight may be heavy, but my God is there to make it seem light in comparison to His awesome grace and love for me. Please, if you read this, take time to pray for me. I am struggling to become a woman of patience, long suffering, and kindness. I am learning to be gentle when I do not feel so gentle inside. Pray that Czech will teach me things and that I get amazing God-led opportunities to help people draw nearer to God. Pray also that I can finish school off strong. I am going to learn to rest in the presence of God and let Him take control of that which I keep letting fall out of my hands.