heaven

Someone's blog got me thinking, as they were talking about how they were looking forward to what was ahead to get their "life started". I would like to believe that we should live this life out the best that we can, but then in reality I start to wonder is this my purpose, to live this life to its fullest? I don't know the answers, but I would like to think that we were made to worship God and be with Him. I think we begin living when we are in heaven. I don't see life from this earth, I can only see it coming from God. Yet, I am so confused. Is my purpose to make the best of every situation, yes. Is my purpose to lead people to Christ, yes. Is it my purpose to live as righteously as I can, yes. Is is my purpose to live the best life I can, yes. and then I ask myself: Is that the end? no. And if that is not the end then I will never reach satisfaction of my life here on earth, I am a sinner and no matter how hard I try to make this life worth it, it never will be. The only time I will be satisfied is in heaven. My life was made to be in heaven, worshiping God without boundaries. My purpose is not on earth to obey God as much as I can, see that maybe if I try my hardest it will be living life to its fullest. Needing Christ's sacrifice is a testimony that we need God and we can not live life to its fullest. We can love God and be called righteous, but I would like to believe that are life doesn't begin here on earth but in heaven, where we finally are able to do what we were called to do, forever without interruptions. But I don't know...I am really tired and have no idea if any of these thoughts make sense. I will look forward to what lies ahead, but these events will not be what holds me together... my satisfaction will be in heaven, knowing that my life is accounted for and now focus on loving God and others--no matter how difficult and stubborn this life can be, never satisfying or rewarding because it is only in heaven that we will find our reward.