Gracious

I think if it weren't for grace, I would have no hope. God is teaching me about His grace for me and I can't help but fall in love with Him and yearn for Him, I can't see myself giving my life to another. I walk out into the world and it is as if the world wants to tell me God doesn't love me, He isn't gracious, He is not forgiving, but the still small voice of God is telling me He does. I can even walk into church and feel judged and I must remember that my relationship between God and I is a different level plane than the church. The church can sometimes look like the world, and the church can make me feel judged but God will never look like the world and His love is without bounds. I don't want to turn anywhere else than to God right now, because I know my sin is innumerable, I know my obedience is lacking, I know I am a failure, I know that I can't get it right, and I know I have so much yearning and passions to live that I must give myself to God. He is the only one who will satisfy, because He is Holy and He accepts me just the way I am, because He died for me while I was just the way I would be. Why not fall in love with God?


I finally decided on the tattoo I want to get. I want it above my elbow on the forearm and I have been wanting it in Hebrew of some character trait of God. I decided on Gracious.