This..

I can't explain myself, but I know I am in a dry spot. I came to Moody with high expectations, perhaps believing God would inspire me here, but I am finding that I my life here won't be passion and inspiration, but a struggle that makes me tare through the disappointments to find the only hope I have: Christ, and believing that that is enough.

Right now I want to give up, I have no passion to do the studies and I am disappointed around every corner. I feel like I am in a spot that was created for someone else and not me. It feels like I have forgotten who I was, got confused on the road, and have led myself into a life that I wish I weren't living, not that I don't want to live, I hope for tomorrow, but that today is not the day I want to live.

But, every day is a gift from God. It doesn't matter whether the day fits me, but whether it fits the plan of God. My plans are not His, and I need to surrender my whole heart to Him. All the desires, all the passion, all the expectations, everything must be His and not mine. May I just be able to experience the joy of being beside the work of a mighty God, instead of centering the world upon myself. This is my prayer.