drained

Is it wrong of me to feel down, because I feel a lack in community? I've got not energy left in me, only that which God provides. I know that we must live on God's strength, but it is a difficult feeling and a test of faith when you run out of your own energy. I've felt groggy all day and I felt angry and sad and I felt like I should cry but I can't, and I tried to search for something to get excited about, but there is none. It is scary when you go to the word and feel like you cannot find the answer. But God is not an immediate God. He answers in perfect timing. But what do you do, but be patient and wait? What do you do except dwell in the negativity of the mind and endure until sometime perhaps you will reencounter the joy you know so well. I would like to blame my sorrows on the people around me and a lack of community. I wold like to blame the lack of community on the rule of not being able to watch movies nor have girls/guys on each other's floors. I feel like this suppresses community so much. Perhaps because when I am at home, that is what we do. We all get together to watch movies at home. Yet, amongst the sorrow who around here is to help me laugh? I don't expect people to crawl at my needs, but I do desire to "encourage each other", but I feel like when I step out to encourage no one is there to encourage me back. Am I just blind or am I really being drained here? How can I be drained when I am around Christian's constantly? Something is wrong, and I hope I am not part of the problem and I hope perhaps I am just blind and that God would open my eyes to see the how the body is working. I just wanted to say I feel drained, and I can't fix it and when I call on God, He just seems to make me wait, so all I can do is wait. I am done tying to fix it.