Does God feel our guilt with us?

"...and I so hate consequences.."

Shopping this year for Christmas has been a challenging time for me. I am really struggling with the meaning of Christmas. I am not struggling on it's definition, we all know that it is about Christ's birth, but there is much more to it then that. My family and friends have always given each other gifts and expected that we "deserved" something in return. Yet, after every present I buy, I am feeling guilty about how I am spending my money. Why don't I just make someone something? I do not know what to make them, and I am already out of time...so I am dealing with consequences of spending money on things that will just pass away. Why don't I spend money to help send bibles to people? Why don't I spend money to help people instead of to just give them more "things". I am trying to show people I care by buying them gifts, but it seems like this way has become the only way in society to show people they care. Someone hurts someone, so they buy them something to make them happy. But things don't last, and they don't make up for anything nor do they bring joy like God gives. I wish that I could wrap up a gift of Christ for people and that people would still delight in opening it, despite that it is not a "thing". GAH, I am so frustrated..I want to give people the world but I can't...and I am not spending my money well at all...Ive spent like 400 in the past few weeks, and I really do not know how to spend my money..and it gets me thinking about how I do not know how to spend my time either. I am frustrated, I wish the guilt of mistakes would go away but I guess they are what guide us to mature and not make the mistakes again.