gahh

So today was exhausting for me and a lot of thoughts ran through my head. I want to just sit and complain, to vent, and to just cry after how exhausting today was for me. I wonder sometimes why the people closest to you don't care to act however they feel, despite how it makes another feel. The swearing, the bad language, the gossip, etc. was draining for me today and I have got to say all I feel like doing is crying and I do not know how I am going to have the energy to work a shift tomorrow of 2 people that needs atleast 3 people on black friday.... I don't understand why God pushes us at times, but I know that He will provide the energy but despite that I don't know if I will stand the test of trusting Him and remaining composed, remaining holy in His sight...because I am freaking out right now and I want to run away.