eternity, time

Ecclesiastes 3:11 Commentary He concluded that God has made everything beautiful in its time, or, better, that there is an appropriate time for each activity. He is not so much thinking here of the beauty of God's creation as the fact that every action has its own designated time, and that in its time it is eminently fitting. Also God has put eternity in man's mind. Though living in a world of time, man has intimations of eternity. Instinctively he thinks of "forever," and though he cannot understand the concept, he realizes that beyond this life there is the possibility of a shoreless ocean of time. Yet God's works and ways are inscrutable to man. There is no way in which we can solve the riddle of creation, providence, or the consummation of the universe, apart from revelation. In spite of the enormous advances of human knowledge, we still see through a glass darkly. MacDonald, W., & Farstad, A. (1997, c1995). Believer's Bible Commentary : Old and New Testaments (Ec 3:11). Nashville: Thomas Nelson.

So I get this daily bible verse email and the one I read today brought up some thoughts for about time and life and all. I am struggling this month on why every time I have a church event, I am excited that I have work off but then something from work comes up that keeps me from church. I am starting to realize that maybe I am not suppose to be at Caribou because it is keeping me from the Church, a lot and I didn't think this would happen if I just said I could work sundays, but wow, it makes such a difference to ask for sundays off... but anyway, I was thinking about why things never turn out how I expect them to or how I can't understand what I am suppose to do right now for the meantime, mostly on how do i make my time last before i go off to college in a couple months. and so reading this email helped a bit. It told me that I don't have to know and I shouldn't even be able to know whats going to happen, or what I am suppose to do for the future...because we aren't even suppose to know, we are just living in the now...but God gave us the ability to understand/desire that there is eternity (a beginning and the end, the alpha and the omega, and more-so the impossibility of forever). I think God gave us this ability so that we would desire Him, desire eternity with him, to be free and no longer bound by time. So, I guess I just need to stop worrying and just the choice I make right now, is it for His glory or mine? and all will fall into place.