lonely

One thing I struggle with a lot is wanting to find someone to spend the rest of my life with. I know that everyone struggles with this but it does not rule out the fact that right now I am dealing with it. Tonight at The River God really showed me that my timing is not His timing. This past month all I could think about, or rather get excited about, was finding I liked someone and that maybe they liked me...and then maybe we would fall in love, change each other for the better, and there would be the happy ending, but life does not work that way. We come up with these fairy tales and we come up with ideas of how we think God would want things to be but really we have no idea, except that He wants to do good and that He is going to grow us closer to Him. Yet, how amazing is that? To be able to grow closer to God? I am realizing how much I have grown since becoming a Christian and then seeing how much I have grown in just this past year; it is so amazing to see the change and to know that it is not over yet! I am going to continue growing and I can not even imagine how God is going to shape me, and that is something to get excited about! That is more exciting than any fairy tale, because not only does God change us but He relates with us. Being in God's presence is far better than having sex, bluntly put. I have had to struggle with this a lot, but this past year I have been growing into a "fall retreat like" experience in my life. I have found that being in God's presence is not just for retreats when we get away, but even at church..home..work..or in my car. When I pray, it is no longer ritual, but it is growing into an intimate conversation. If God wills that I have a relation with another man here on earth, praise God! but if God wills it that all of my focus goes to Him, than I will praise Him even more!

I think sometimes we define the fix of loneliness in a wrong way, God can fill that gap of loneliness, even people in relationships can feel lonely.
Here is a song that makes me think this is true:
Keane, "We Might as Well Be Strangers"