frustrations

I am having the hardest time being in Minnesota right now. We are having construction done at our house, in which mice have come to invest itself among us, and I really feel like I don't have any private time. At work everything evolves around complaining instead of encouraging, well for a few people who like to make their voices loud. I am wishing God would just reveal a job for me, I went out searching for a job and ended up at Caribou and I detest the situation..one person I was hoping to make friends with has now quit/got fired, all because of the stupid whining and backstabbing of each other at work. I now am starting to drag into the whining of other people and I look at myself in disgust, because last night I complained about a group of people and then i started to realize how much I had been talking about other people, not always bad but a lot of the time just useless. This job I am at is not for me, and I wish I could just end it now and go off to school..but thats not how time works and so I sit here at home, while listening to all the banding of construction, and think GOD why the heck am I here? WHY? Do you want me to share Christ with this construction worker? Find someone else, because this is not the right time and place...he's working. And then I think wow the biggest reason I am not sharing Christ with this guy is because I haven't done so with my parents...gahh the gnawing of responsibilities... I just wish I could understand why I feel so distant from God and why I am not happy right now, I don't want to be here! and yet I need to make the best of this time and not let these days go to waste, but why? I just don't want to deal, because there is no one to deal it with, except God and He is very distant right now.