faith

I don't know why it is so hard to stay still when God doesn't seem to show up. I sometimes wonder whether God is even there when there is no sign of Him around, most of the time just because I am blinded by my own sin. I like to think that I always, not just know, but believe that God is there, but today I realized I don't and I am not sure if I ever will here on earth. I think part of a relationship with God is questioning Him, whether God wants us to or not, we are sinful and there will always be a time when we will eventually doubt. Yet, beneath all the un-assurance there is something I can't explain; and it's faith. The world has their definition of faith and I remember a discussion with a group of friends trying to make sense of what faith is, and we came to conclude that faith is making the choice to be sure of a belief. Yet I know that faith is so much more than that, which I can not explain in terms, because faith is something God created for us in order to worship Him even at the deepest lows of our lives. It is something that is beyond this hemisphere, beyond the laws of science, and even God's word says that He gave us the order that "we must serve faithfully and wholeheartedly in the fear of the Lord (2 Chronicles 19:9)." ...finish this thought later

Psalm 85:10
Love and faithfulness meet together; righteousness and peace kiss each other.

Luke 18:42
Jesus said to him, "Receive your sight; your faith has healed you."

1 Timothy 1:5
The goal of this command is love, which comes from a pure heart and a good conscience and a sincere faith.

note to self: Read 1 Timothy 1.