"Kelli is at enmity with time."


I feel like every second of my life is being wasted, being thrown away while waiting for something amazing to happen...waiting for that special someone to come into my life and swift me off my feet, for that amazing new dorm room at school, for all the cute boys in Chicago, for my desire to eventually move to Ireland, to someday have the chance to create a famous cg design, to get out of this house that i feel hostile in, to finally get out of my job and get a new one!!! I have so many things I want to do, but I read God's word and it tells me that I can not even know what happens tomorrow...why am I making plans? why am I saying to myself, "This is how it is going to be." Why do I fool myself into thinking I have control of my life day after day. Is it not God that allows us to still breathe? It is only through Him that we are allowed what we are. God allows us to live our lives here on earth despite the sin that seeps through every page of our life story, and He does this all so that He can have mercy on us. In our minds it would not make sense for a God to work this way. Why would someone with power and authority allow evil to take place just to forgive it? Our minds are so confined that we can not grasp God's encompassing love. ..I don't even know what to say to understand